Pregnancy...Not What I Expected

Most people, upon hearing that you want a baby, will offer their thoughts whether you asked for them to or not. So, since for two years I was 'shared with' a lot, I thought had a vague sense of what to expect when my time finally came. I must say, I wasn't nearly as prepared as I imagined.

I expected to feel nauseous and to vomit every day for about two months. 

I didn't expect to already love my baby so much at only six weeks that 'Mommy loves you' became my mantra as I hovered over the toilet each morning, nor to be so happy about throwing up because it meant my body was working properly.

I expected to be totally exhausted the whole first trimester.

I didn't expect to embrace nap time as my first 'cuddle time' with my precious, tiny baby.

I expected to never be able to eat enough once the second trimester arrived.

I didn't expect to enjoy the increase in appetite and see it as sort of a fun challenge to share with my baby all the 'good' food that I like.

I expected my body to grow bigger.

I didn't expect to be fond of the way I look pregnant, nor did I expect my heart to grow proportionally greater than my belly in ways I can't really describe.

I expected to become uncomfortable as my baby grew.

I didn't expect to be totally amazed at every movement, nor to be so entertained by the parts of his or her personality that I imagine are being exhibited by these 'silly' acrobatics.

I expected to be afraid of labor & delivery.

I didn't expect to be so encouraged during our birthing classes learning that my body knows how to deliver and that my baby knows how to be delivered.

I expected it to get harder to sleep as I approach full term.

I didn't expect to relish in lying awake next to my incredibly wonderful husband, nor to use that time to pray earnestly about many different things that don't make it to the surface of my thoughts during the busyness of the day.

I expected to feel like I'm not in control of my body.

I didn't expect to feel so full of purpose, nor to be so content in 'taking it easy' and resting often from getting worn out so easily because I know that's what's best for my baby.

No, this pregnancy was not what I expected. 

It's been so much better that I could have imagined.

-Becca